The Way It Feels: Part 1

it’s like sweat dripping

no

pouring

drowning you

like ocean waves

in the very hottest moments of summer

you.

feel.

every.

second.

like clocks ticking

every clock ticking

amilliontickingclocks.

amilliontickingclockssurroundingyouspinningallaroundyou

ticktickticking

your face feels hot-

from the sweating?

NO

that can’t be right

you’re shaking

you’re freezing cold

why are you so cold?

it’s so hot

 you’re sweating

no

you must be cold

you’re shaking

you must be cold

 

your heart is choking the breath from your throat

it beats off time from the ticking clocks

somehow

that’s worse

your mind doesn’t know what to listen too

but

someone punched you in the stomach

you’re heaving

but the vomit

can’t.

make it.

past.

your heart.

so you lay on the floor

your burning face against the cool flat surface

the world tilting

while you shake from cold

your heart beating so fast

and so hard

you feel like you’re dying

you must be dying

your stomach heaves against your protesting body

this is what dying feels like

you must be dying

you can’t breathe your gasping against your hulking misplaced heart while the darkness closes in starting from your peripherals and fading to the center

you gasp

and heave

and clutch your sides

on the cool floor

your face hot

sweating

your body shaking cold

 

 

 

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