I never meant

to not be there

when you needed me.


I’ve wanted to,


or write?

for some time,

but I know you’re gone.


And I am so very sorry

that when you reached out for me,

my back was turned.


I carry you in my heart always.

I regret not reaching back.

You’re never far from my mind,

and sometimes I can almost feel you next to me.


My soul longs to see you smile,

or to hear you laugh.


I want you to know,

for so long my world was whole,

just knowing that

somewhere, you were in it breathing.


I love you.

But I know you’re gone.



I know you’re gone.